Career Mom...or not

There's a little part of me that worries every day how I'm going to continue being a good mom to Victoria once I go back to work. And I hate it. I mean really hate it....sometimes it makes me feel sick to my stomach. I am dreading the day (October 3rd, btw) when I have to leave her for an entire day - for an entire work week - with someone else (no offense Tiffany, I'm sure she'll do great with you!). I know women do it all the time and are still good mommies. I just worry how I'm going to have the energy to teach all day (and deal with behavior issues - ugh), fit in making lesson plans/grading papers/attending meetings, and come home and take care of V and cater to my wonderful hubby (and when am I supposed to get to the gym, again?! Or cook? My two favorite things...)

And of course this month is going by ridiculously fast. I'm trying to hold on to each day and make it last longer...so I can be with my baby girl just a little longer. I love to teach and I'm excited to get to do that again, but somehow being with Victoria seems so much more important now. I don't want to miss the little things - or not so little things -  and I know I will miss some of them. Yuck. Icky feelings again.

Any positive thoughts, friends? I could certainly use some :(

xoxo,

No longer waiting...for now

I meant to point this out the other day, but you may have a noticed a change to my blog. Yep! That's right! I'm no longer "madre in waiting" because I am no longer waiting to be a momma! Victoria has made me the luckiest madre, hence my new title. Every time I see her sweet face, hear her cries through the monitor, or change a stinky diaper, I'm reminded of just how lucky Trey and I are. Reminds me of that kind of lucky I felt when I first knew I loved Trey...or when I said "I do"...but times a million twizzlers (Trey can appreciate this comment!). So in my opinion (naturally) I am the luckiest momma there is to have such an amazing baby girl.

Now it's possible I will be a madre in waiting again...at some point (wink, wink)...but I will always consider myself the luckiest, from here on out. Thank you, sweet Victoria, for being such a blessing in my life.

V at two weeks old...this seems so long ago!

So, please note, if you're ever trying to go to my blog via the link, it is now:
www.theluckiestmadre.blogspot.com

I'm off to bed now so I can hang out with Victoria in the early hours (LUCKY me! - and there's no sarcasm there! :)

xoxo,

Super Mom!

That's what I keep hearing in my head..."Super Mom!" (with the same singy-song voice as you would use to say "Super Man!"). I finally feel like I've arrived as a mom, and it's only 12:05 p.m. on this fine Sunday morning. I've gotten more accomplished (and without crying and any other hiccups) this morning than I have this entire week. You know the advice, "sleep when the baby sleeps"? Well, I had started to take that a little too much to heart and I feel like I was getting too much sleep. I was stuck in this haze where I wouldn't leave the house for days at a time, taking care of Victoria, and living solely around her schedule. As a new mom trying to provide the best for your new baby, it's easy to get stuck in the repetitive cycle of nurse, burp, change, rock, sleep, repeat....and not do anything for yourself.

So this morning after Victoria woke up at 7:00, she nursed, and then I got both of us ready and out the door by 7:45. We went to Trader Joe's, Wal-Mart, and made it back home before her next feeding (first "yes!" moment). She enjoyed a 9:30 a.m. breakfast and then while she hung out in the  swing cheerfully, I changed into my running clothes and got V & pup ready for a run. We ran for 30 minutes around the neighborhood (beautiful morning, might I add) without Dean pulling my arm off and Victoria fell into a deep slumber within seconds of leaving the driveway (second "yes!" moment). Once we got home, I got both Dean and V inside and although V woke up, she fell back asleep in her swing while I did my stretching routine so that I could take a shower (third "yes!" moment). I got out of the shower, ran downstairs to see if she was crying, and to add to my super successful morning, she was still asleep. That meant I could actually put on make-up after throwing on my clothes (rare!) and I got to enjoy a nice lunch as I wrote this post.

It's the little things that make life grand :)




Did I mention she is also decked out in her Redskins onesie/bib for the game today? And she hasn't even spit up or pooped on it yet! (fourth "yes!" moment)....we've got 35 minutes till kickoff though. Keep your fingers crossed!












xoxo,

PS. Baby V is still napping and I was able to write and publish this entry (fifth "yes!" moment) Woohoo!!!

2 month check-up report

Victoria had her 2 month check-up today. I love "well visits" because it's a happy visit to the Doc! Except for those no good, terrible shots...

I've always been a weak one when it comes to anything that pierces through my skin. I would cry, or vomit, or pass out. Probably seems a bit hilarious (so dramatic, right?) but to me it was the worst possible thing ever! I always wished I was stronger but alas, I'm not. It is what it is. Watching Victoria get shots is almost as bad. I hate seeing my poor baby girl in pain and feeling so helpless as her mother. She had to get 3 vaccines today and has had some grumpy moments this afternoon as a result - but I don't blame her, I'd be grumpy too!

Baby V prior to "the shots"....a happy girl!

Her latest stats...

weight: 12.3 lbs (75th percentile)
length: 22.4 inches (50th percentile)
head circumference: 15.5 inches (80th percentile)

That's our growing girl! She's still breastfeeding at this point. I didn't know if I'd be able to hang in there but I finally got "good" at it about 6 weeks in and wasn't ready to give it up. My goal now is to continue breastfeeding once I go back to work in October. We'll see how that goes!!

Tomorrow is my 26th birthday...and my first birthday with my sweet baby girl. I can't wait :)

xoxo,